Suffocating

Suffocating,
Falling deeper and deeper into that familiar grey place
With memories wrapping themselves around my body

Gently,
At first, like the steady hand of a lover
Slowly it starts to tighten its grip...
Searing uncomfortable tendrils of good times lost

I scream
But no sound passes my lips
And the grey tendrils slip into my mouth
Filling me up from the inside out

Filling my lungs
I CANT BREATHE!

Make it stop!!

I want to scream, the tears flowing freely
The times of the past pressed so heavily on my chest
Cracking my ribs
Crushing my heart

Seeing the shell of a human they left behind
Seeing the tear stained face
Seeing the newly forming bruises
The blood seeping from new found cuts
Seeing how I've been broken
Seeing they can do no more damage

The memories recede
Leaving me alone.
Cold and sobbing
In a world full of grey

Please

I beg,

Just make the pain stop

Gripping my heart I lay there
Praying for sleep
For some relief
When will this be over?
When can I look back and not be hit with the full force of our forgotten love?
When can I look upon your face impartially?
When can I look in the mirror and see some one who is worth living?

Please

I beg,

To no one
To any one
As sleep finds my tattered form

Please, just let me breathe again